Firstly, I am proud of you. Yes you, that girl over there who’s been through a hell of a ride in 2018 and is now searching for her happiness. You are battling some damn stuff right now or have done for so long and you’re still here and damn my heart is so full of belief that I know your happiness is right around the corner. You are fucking amazing and I am so damn proud of you.
Secondly, I am so damn proud of me!! Yes little old me who would never give any praise to herself, take the brunt, plod along and always wish things would get better but never dare to take the plunge. But I have done some amazing difficult things recently and I think I’m finding my inner Lorna again.
I’m feeling so empowered this 2019 and I have no idea where all these amazing feelings have come from. It’s been a long time coming and I am so ready for it.
Hello Lorna 💖 where have you been?!
It’s been a tough year, so it seems, and it’s so easy to just plod on with life when things aren’t ever going right and you feel things will never get better and you get stuck in situations you can’t get out of, for whatever reason. I’ve been stuck in a rut for a very long time and my head’s been a complete mess but, things are on the up.
I am so damn happy since leaving a job I downright hated, realising what I want and how to get it, letting go of toxic people and cherishing those close to me and finally realising I am worth it. Because I fucking am and I’m so damn proud of me, but not just me, you too!!!
Don’t you just love the support you can receive when you start to glow? I posted a few Instagram pictures recently – I’d never usually have the confidence to post such things, but something is burning brightly inside of me, so I did it, and the comments fill my heart with so much love….
Like! These women are beautiful hot ladies who have been through so much and are just here lifting me up yknow?! And they don’t know, but I love them for it. These aren’t even my closest best friends either, these are people I know locally and are just so damn lovely and here they are bigging me up (like, why me??!!), saying such crazy amazing things, when in my head these are the things I think about them every day I see them or when I see them online.
My best friend and my sister from another mister has been through a tough breakup and she has been constantly hit at every hurdle, but she is absolutely killing it!! She’s lost weight, she’s happier, she’s sorting her shit and she is finally realising her worth and I can see the confidence and happiness in that smile and that’s the friend I know, and it’s the most beautiful and heart-filling thing. I’m so proud of her.
I love the fact women are raising eachother up, not to bang my feminist drum, but what could be a really tough time for me, through these comments, amazing support from my friends, a great job and company, I’m actually flying. Inside I feel so different, it’s like a confidence has lit inside of me and I can feel my happiness beam out of me.
It’s been lost for a long time I think, and I was talking to a friend yesterday about what’s been happening and we had the most amazing catch-up and it was just beautiful and just perfect listening to eachother and hearing how far we’d come and our plans and how things just seem to be damn working out, especially since a few months ago we were both on the brink of giving up, or had given up, alternately. It’s a crazy ride this life isn’t it?
You are damn amazing! Yes you! I can’t believe it. This is why I kept plodding along, this is why I fought to rise through the flames and take the difficult steps. Because I’m damn worthy of happiness and I know it’s out there. It’s my time to grab it and it’s your time too.
Whatever happens, you can do this. Whatever is happening in your life, you have got this and things are going to be amazing. Sure, you’ll have your down days and down moments as mental health sucks but it’s all about looking how far you’ve come and far you’re going to fly.
This is your time.
Your year and I am so damn proud of us all.
I didn’t believe any of these words when my friends were relaying these to me over the past two years, that I can achieve anything and do anything, that I deserve happiness and deserve everything, and that I CAN DO THIS, but you know what? Something has just clicked and fallen into place and I feel so different…. Is this me? Is this Lorna? Wow.
…. Can you tell I’m pretty damn chipper right now?.. I just haven’t felt like this in such a long time.
Hello Lorna 💖 where have you been.